To Share This or Not To Share...

So I have had this post on my mind for a while and I just couldn't decide if I should share it on my blog or not because it is seriously embarrassing. But as I have shared it with a few people I am close with I have learned I was not alone! So since it is quite a funny story (to me anyways) I thought I wanted it documented. It is quite a long story I apologize!

So It was a regular Tuesday afternoon at work. We had just had our free lunch provided from the drug rep which was some noodles and chicken. It was good but I wasn't super hungry so I only ha a tiny bit and after my phone call with my mom it was back to work for the afternoon. It wasn't even 1:30 and I suddenly felt the urge to go to the washroom. So thinking nothing I cruised on back to the staff bathroom to find myself a little "stuck" as you might call it. I didn't have a stomach ache or anything but when i would sit down on the toilet I felt the urge to push! haha but nothing would come. It was really painful and I had no idea what was up because I had felt perfect all day. So after a half hour of pushing and sweating and texting a coworker to cover my desk I finally ventured back to my desk sat down and felt fine again. The afternoon was relatively slow for a Tuesday but 4:00 came quite quickly and before I knew it i was due for another potty break. Still feeling fine and no stomach ache I braved the bathroom again. This go around was much worse. The pushing just happened and I could not control it. I was thinking "what is wrong with me, I don't feel sick or have a stomach ache at all and I have always been so regular!" But as the minutes dragged on and the sweat was dripping off my naked body as I paced the staff washroom, I looked in the mirror to see a ghostly reflection. Wow was I white. Whiter than I have ever been but i wasn't surprised as I had been in so much pain that I had already been on the verge of puking. So after another half hour battle I walked out of the bathroom and told my coworker Kristen that I think I needed to go home and as soon as she saw me she told me to leave right away. Which probably wasn't the smartest time for me to be driving when I was in such a rough condition. I got in my car though and texted Andin and said I was going home early as I didn't feel well and I knew he would be home after 5 so I wasn't too worried and I got home and laid down. I was back to feeling a lot better but so confused what was happening to me. (Yes as I explain it it does seem very obvious what was wrong I know) I then slept for a few hours as Andin sat beside me on the couch.

It was about 8:00 when I woke up and boom had to pee again of course! I looked at Andin with total fear in my eyes and said I don't want to go to the bathroom I am so scared because I have no control over anything as soon as I sit on the toilet and when the pushing starts it is such awful pain I could puke. He didn't really understand why I was so scared because since he had seen me I was almost normal. So I got in the bathroom after I gained the courage and closed the door behind me (you should know i usually either leave the door opened or unlocked this time I just closed it though because I knew how scared Andin might be witnessing what I was going through.) So I sat down and instantly the spasms and pushing started this time ever worse than the last. I had stripped down into nothing but my G top in like 2 mins and was screaming in pain and didn't know what was happening. I was on the verge of puking again when I decided I am going to try and stand and walk to stop the spasms, but the second I stood up BOOM I fainted. Next thing I knew Andin was kneeling over me saying Kenzie what the heck is wrong with you and all I could say was I am in so much pain. He was like gee Kenzie I didn't realize you were so bad we need to get you to the hospital. But as I crawled to the carpet to lay down Andin was like Kenzie get up or back in the bathroom your gonna get poop on the carpet. I was so delusional I asked him to wipe for me. (Now that is trust when you can ask that) But he declined and said no chance (isn't he so nice-although I probably would have said no if he asked me to do that). My first request was to call my mom and so after Andin passed me the phone and I gave my mom the 411 she was going to call the Raymond Hospital and have the Dr on call there for when I arrived because it is much faster in Raymond than Lethbridge. So me and Andin got all ready to head out there and met my mom at the hospital. The drive was brutal as I was so sore from hitting my shoulder and elbow on the sink and wall when I fainted but I was happy to arrive and see no line up. 

They put me back in an exam room and I began explaining what was going on with me to the nurse. She asked if I had experienced any bloating or stomach aches at all. I said no and that the discomfort was only when I went to the washroom. So after writing a bunch on her clipboard Dr Steed came and and began to assess me. He seemed very worried as he read my chart and felt my stomach and everything that maybe I had a cyst in my colon that was causing these rectal spasms. This made me nervous that he didn't even know what was wrong with me so he decided to do a rectal exam on me. Yep definitely not flattering and very uncomfortable and painful. And after feeling around he was more puzzled than before he said ya there is stool in there but not a lot that I can tell. So he sent me home with some suppossatories  and told me to use these tonight and in the morning  and come back early if I had a bad night or in the afternoon if I was still the same. So i ventured back to my parents and as Andin ate some Salmon (I still hadn't eaten since the tiny plate of chicken and noodles and it was now at least 10:30 pm) I laid on the floor and got extremely nervous. Was something wrong with me that was serious? So after putting the suppository in I decided it was time to try and get some rest. It was one of the worst nights ever. I was up every half hour with spasms I couldn't control. So finally at 9:00 I got up and went to talk to my mom. I laid there and decided I would just battle until the afternoon to go back. After a few minutes chatting with my mom she told me it was time to try and go to the bathroom again so after a minor panic attack I decided to try again. My body was so tight that I couldn't even get myself to go pee. This made my mom really nervous and so after she talked to my dad we decided it was up to hospital we went. So I woke Andin up and said hey we need to go back in so just the two of us went in this time and saw Dr Tollestrup. He pulled up my chart again and reviewed it with me and I updated him on everything. He thought ok this is strange but we are going to give you a water enema to see if that helps so the nurse will do that and hold it in for 15 mins then go to the bathroom. I was terrified. So the nurse comes in and flushed me full of water. It gave me an instant stomach ache. And I rolled over into fetal position and tried to keep it in. But I wan't having much success. So after 4-6 short mins I was waddling to the bathroom. As I sat down I understood why they wanted me to hold it in longer because the longer it is in the smaller the blockage was. I sat down and finally peed and the pushing happened right away and it was still awful but boom then the blockage was coming. Ugh that was painful was all I could think as Andin knocked on the bathroom door. Now another awkward thing was I had to wipe and put toilet paper in the garbage. That is not pleasant and then a nurse had to come in to look. AWKWARD! I was so relieved it wasn't anyone I knew! I was instantly feeling much better besides being still and sore so I went back to my parents and rested.

 It was a roller coaster 15 hours and I was so happy for it to be over. I was so relieved it was just a "blockage" causing this and nothing long term. It is crazy how fast you can take for granted being healthy and happy with everything we already have. Especially with bombs at Marathons, fires and other catastrophes that have other people not just becoming injured or sick but causing families to lose a parent or a child. I now realize how lucky I am and plan to never take for granted being able to walk and run by myself. I just thought this was a funny and embarrassing story that I never wanted didn't forget. Thanks Andin and my parents for sticking it out with me! 

Love,
Kenz

2013 Happenings

So yes I have been absent from this blogging thing for over 2 months now and I cant believe I let myself go like that! So I have got a lot of catching up to do. So February was a busy month for us with Valentines my birthday and a trip to Phoenix!  So for Valentines I came home from work not sure what the plan was and thought I'd be waiting for Andin to get home from school at 5:30 and find out then! Well his last class was cancelled so he snuck home hid the car and when i pulled in and walked in the house he had dinner ready! My favorite food is spaghetti so he had that all cooked up with candle lit and some of his favorite Jack Johnson music. It was super romantic and I was so flattered but felt bad when all I had done was written him a letter (if you don't know well me I'm famous for notes and letters). It was such a fun night to just get to chill and spend time at home with him and stuff I couldn't have asked for a better evening.

Look at that dinner

I attempted to make cookies but was not a success at all! they turned out like biscuits! No wonder I don't cook!

Three or so days later we were on the plane to Phoenix for a week of fun. Me and 7 boys! Ya, Andin being the only one married made that one possible. It was a ton of fun though because my parents and Jimmy and Brett were down there so I spent a little bit of time with them! The crew was me, And in, Matt Maclennan, Ben Robinson, Dan Wilde, Josh Koegler, Landon Leavitt, and Luc Rollingson! The week was perfect! It was full of shopping, cards, laying poolside, some pool basketball, 2 on 2 football, regular basketball go karts and a Suns game! It was perfect weather while we were there except the one day we had a rain storm but we knew ahead of time and planned our shopping for this day! We stayed at a place the Wilde's part own and let me tell you was it amazing (pics to come)! I was all about laying by the pool and trying to get a tan for when I came home! It was barely over 20 degrees so you had to spend quite a bit of time outside to see results! This trip had a lot laughs, nicknames, cheap fast-food, and teasing! Luckily I wasn't on the bad end of the teasing! During the week in Arizona was my birthday! I have these unreal expectations for my birthday every year and that its going to be like something amazing right out of a movie or something! It never is but I really did enjoy it this year! I got to get up sun tan get ready head to some go karts then the Suns game.. the only downfall was having to eat Burger King before the game because there was no where else close-and there's no worse fast food than Burger King! But, overall I had an amazing day! I was so not ready to leave the Arizona sunshine but knew a holiday couldn't last forever so we were back on the plane to come home before we knew it and we were super depressed to be leaving and coming back to the grind of working! 

 This is the life.. sun tanning while the boys play pool ball!

 This was our little football field and they even let even let me play

 Andin hit up some great golfing while we were there

All except the days he went with Jimmy and Brett

 Apparently i have a huge head and had to wear a helmet 2 sizes bigger than Andin

 Suns game

March was another full month! It started slow as usual for work and such but volleyball was coming to a close and as much as I was ready for the 6-7 month season to be over I was sad to miss my Monday nights with my girls! We ended up coming in 2nd in our division and won $75 so it wasn't that bad! Just before the tournament I decided I would dye my hair brown because Andin always wanted me to get this done! Maybe he wanted me to look like his sisters who knows! But i really do love the change and love how refreshing a new hair style can feel! It has been a long time coming for me! Andin also got a calling as Elder's Quorum 2nd counsellor. He is excited for it but nervous in the same breathe as he is by far the youngest member of the quorum to start with but it is good they will be utilizing him and his abilities! I am super proud to have an amazing husband who is able to hold the priesthood and have callings in the church! We also had my grandma Jazelle's surprise 80th birthday for her before she goes into knee surgery (we did it a month and a half early so she could really enjoy everything). It was the first time since 1997 that my grandma had all her kids, grandkids, and great grandkids together! That is a very long time but its hard to get that many people together! It was tons of fun getting to be with my cousins and spend some time doing old tradition and playing bingo like we did as kids at grandmas house! Trying to get pictures with everyone was a tiny bit hard and sadly I don't have a copy of the group picture but I have a copy of a few others! She was thoroughly surprised and so happy to have everyone there! It must be an insane feeling to have all the people who are together as a results of her and grandpa Lloyd falling in love and deciding to get married and have a family! We are so blessed that they made that choice! I love her tons and some of my fondest memories of her were sleeping over every Friday night when I was in Elementary school and waking up early and grandpa taking me to Kokomo's for my fill of candy, then getting to help grandma bake buns with my tiny rolling pics and loaf pans! I feel like my grandma has been such an amazing example of a strong kind woman and I have always looked up to her and admired everything about her! I can't imagine life without her! 

 Rox volleyball team

 Andin got to babysit for Kaylee for the afternoon-thiese girls are crazy for him

Brown hair

 Grandma and Grandpa Ralph with their kids- a little flashback

 Hiding to surprise grandma

 80 things grandma loves

The lady of the hour

 Andin is seriously a baby whisperer

All 18 grandkids

Best buds from the days we couldn't even walk

Next came the Easter weekend at the Pavan cabin! Not everyone was there but it still was fun! We did a few beautiful quad rides, a little bit of shopping, and some golf even. But mainly with Pavan's it is a lot of eating! It is always so refreshing to leave home and get some new scenery! It was a much needed break from the stressful work I have had the last 2 months running a walk-in and regular clinic as a lone receptionist! So after feeling a little exhausted from that the weekend was the therapy I needed and after my weekend away I was ready to come home and get back to my tiny basement suite! After a busy weekend no where is better than my quiet little place! It is funny that even though I lived at my parents for so many years this place I am in now feels more like home that my parents does now! But that's how it should be right? 

 Quad ride- dont mind the 80's jacket i am wearing

 Brixton and Banks

 Finally reached the top

 The boys

 Look at that view

 Time for some golf

Ya i know i have bad form

The sunset on the drive home

Well now that I am caught up I will try not to get that far behind anymore!

Love, Kenz